17th March
Just got back from seeing Unknown Pleasures in
Barnsfield. God, that band are
awesome! I drove down with Spyder and
met up with Simon and the others at the pub.
It's so much fun when we all get together! Oh yeah, NEWSFLASH! Simon was with a GIRL! I think everyone was as surprised as I was
when we walked in and saw them standing there at the bar. I wasn't the only one who thought he might be
a closet gay but no, he actually has a GIRLFRIEND! Her name is Angel and she is really
pretty. She seemed a bit shy, she said
it was the first time she'd been to a gig but she looked like she really
enjoyed the band. Well, what's not to
like about Unknown Pleasures? They RAWK!
I am loving my life so much at the moment. Working at the shop is great and things with
Spyder are wonderful! He's so
different to my other boyfriends, he
doesn't just want to get drunk and fuck all the time, although we do have a lot
of sex, but that's different too.
My parents have been really cool about him. They let me sleep over at his house and they
even let him stay over in my room, although that is kind of weird, sleeping
with Spyder when they are in the house.
I'm on my own tonight though, I've got to get up early to open up the shop
tomorrow and Spyder has to get his pictures ready for the gallery. Yeah, my dad sorted everything and come Monday
his photographs of me will be on sale at the Ashley Gallery in Bradford. It's kind of scary, so many people will be
looking at me naked, but I'm so proud of Spyder, it's a dream come true for
him. Anyway, it's gone 1 o'clock so I'd
best get my beauty sleep. Night night!
1st April
Yesterday was so brilliant! We went to see Unknown Pleasures play at The
Swan and they were awesome as usual.
Spyder told me that Simon and Angel were crashing at his place but I'd
totally forgotten about it until they came in my shop.
It was good to see Simon looking so happy. He'd brought Angel in to get her some new
clothes. She looked so shy and nervous
but I sorted her out with a dress, boots and accessories. She looked amazing! There was something that didn't quite fit
though. Her mousy brown hair just didn't
go. Me and Simon both had the same
idea. Purple! She would look gorgeous with purple hair! I
packed everything up and said I'd go around to Spyder's and dye her hair before
the gig. She looked apprehensive but I
knew she'd look fantastic and I told her the dye would wash out. Simon was so wrapped up in her so I said I'd
do my best to make her look gorgeous.
I went around to Spyder's after work with my makeup
box. I took Angel up to the bathroom and
started to dye her hair. She's really
nice. We chatted while the dye
took. Angel told me how she met Simon. He kissed her outside the head teacher's
office at school and then he ran off with her back to his house! He certainly knows how to sweep a girl off
her feet!
Angel's face was a picture when we rinsed the dye
off. It was bright purple and looked
amazing. She dried and straightened her
hair while I got ready and then I helped her with her makeup. She looked cracking. Simon and Spyder cheered when she came down
the stairs. She was like a different
person, so full of confidence, not like the shy school girl who walked into my
shop this afternoon.
We got the bus into town but arrived a bit early for
the gig so we went for a drink in the pub around the corner. As we walked past the venue we bumped into
Miles from Unknown Pleasures. I was
gobsmacked when Miles said hello to Angel!
She'd met him at the gig in Barnsfield, but she didn't know he was in
the band until he came out on stage.
I teased her about it at the pub. I also told her to watch out for
Cassandra. She'd had a go at me for just
saying hello to Miles! My warning came a
little too late though. Simon and Spyder
went off to dance at the gig leaving me and Angel at the bar, when Cassandra
came over and had a right go at her.
She'd seen Miles talking to her earlier and she warned her off him. Angel was really shook up, but Simon came
back and she snogged him right in front of Cassandra, just to prove she wasn't
interested in stealing her boyfriend.
The gig didn't finish until late so we got a cab back
to the house. The party had already
started. I was quite surprised to see
Miles there. I was a little less shy of
talking to him this time but I made sure I was with Spyder at the time. I saw him talking to Angel on the
stairs. If I didn't know better I'd say
he had a crush on her. I don't blame him
one little bit, Angel look stunning in her new clothes, purple hair and makeup,
but I could tell she was totally in love with Simon.
It was gone four in the morning by the time me and
Spyder got to bed. I was knackered and
we just fell asleep holding each other.
I was woken up the next morning by the sound of screams coming from the
bathroom. It must have been Angel
because I heard Simon call her name.
She'd tried to wash the dye out of her hair but it didn't work and it
was still really bright purple. I felt
so guilty 'cos I'd told her it would wash out.
It was still very purple when her and Simon left to get the train
home. I hope she got it sorted out in
time for School on Monday. I never meant
to get her into trouble, she's really nice.
I can see me and her becoming good friends.
1st May
I think I'm going to change my name to Lora
Queen-of-fuck-ups Johnson. I can't be
trusted with anything and I am so mad at myself. A couple of weeks ago I stayed over at
Spyders. We'd got a bit drunk and ended
up in bed. I grabbed a condom from my bag
but it was one of those cheap nasty ones from the machine at the pub, and guess
what? It broke. Spyder was a bit cross about it, I don't
think it had ever happened to him before.
I told him not to worry and I'd sort it.
The next day was pretty shit. I was hung over, I was late opening the shop,
the delivery came but everything on it was wrong. It was just one of those days where nothing
goes right. I was going to get the
morning after pill at lunch time but I completely forgot. Yeah, I know I'm an idiot! I got home from work tonight and realised my
period is two days late. I don't know
what to do! I can't tell Spyder, I
promised him I'd sort it and I didn't. I
know I'll have to do a pregnancy test, I still have two from the last time but
I can't remember where I put them. I'm
going to have to turn my room upside down and hope they turn up so I can do a
test in the morning. I am so scared, I
love Spyder but I don't want to be pregnant right now.
2nd May
Good news, I'm not pregnant! I found the pregnancy tests, I'd hidden them
at the bottom of my sock drawer. Yeah,
go figure! I got up really early and did
the test and it came up negative, thank fuck for that! I hadn't slept a wink all night so I went
back to bed. I must have forgotten to
set my alarm because my mum woke me up at half past eight asking if I was sick
or something. I was late for work! I went out to find I'd got a flat tyre on my
car so I had to get the bus in, which made me even more late, then I
accidentally short changed my first customer.
I was so embarrassed, I just wanted to go home and crawl back into bed.
I stuck it out until four o'clock but I was knackered
and in such a bad mood I closed up the shop and went home. I got back to find mum sat in the kitchen
with a worried look on her face. She
said she wanted a word with me. I sat
down and mum asked me if I was pregnant.
My jaw nearly hit the table! I
said no way! Then mum put the pregnancy
test box on the table. she said she
found it in the bathroom this morning.
Shit! I meant to put it in the
wheelie bin outside but I must have forgotten.
This day was just getting worse!
I couldn't help it, I burst into tears and my mum came
and gave me a hug. When I'd calmed down
a bit we talked about things. She asked
me if I was trying to get pregnant and I said no. I explained how the condom broke and I was
going to get the morning after pill but I forgot. She was glad I didn't take it, she didn't like
hormonal contraception because it messed up the body's natural balance. I didn't tell her I'd taken it before and
been fine, more or less.
Mum gave me a lecture about alternative and natural
methods of contraception, but I didn't want to take my chances with that. I had a hard enough time remembering when my
period was due never mind charting dates and everything. We talked about Spyder and how I felt about
him. I told mum he was really special
and that I loved him very much. She said
she could tell.
She asked if Spyder knew about the pregnancy test and
I said no. She said maybe I should tell
him. If we wanted a sexual relationship
but not children then we'd need to figure out something better than
condoms. I was surprised when she suggested
that the pill might be an option for me.
I knew how she felt about it but she also knew me and her were different
and she just wanted what was best for me.
I thought about what she said and she was right, I had
to tell Spyder about it. I went to the
loo and guess what? My period had
started! Bloody typical! I came out of the bathroom to find Spyder
standing in the hallway. He'd gone
around to the shop but it was closed and he was worried about me. He'd tried to call but my phone had gone flat. I just stood there and burst into tears
again.
Spyder must have through I'd gone crazy! He gave me a hug and asked what was
wrong. I took him up to my bedroom and
told him everything. He just held me
while I poured my heart out. He was a
bit shocked that I could have been pregnant but he was pleased I'd been honest
with him. Not once did he say I was
stupid or silly or anything. He agreed
with my mum that it might be best if I went on the pill, he even said he'd go
to the clinic with me. He was just
brilliant! I felt a right idiot for
messing up and getting so upset but Spyder said it was OK. I think he's used to me being a bit flaky by now. In some ways we are complete opposites, but
they say opposites attract, and boy am I attracted him! LORA N SPYDER 4 EVA!
14th May
It's me and Spyder's three month anniversary
today! I can't believe we've been
together three months. I feel like we've
always been together. Things are so
good. We've been more honest with each
other since my pregnancy scare and we're getting really serious about each
other. We see each other almost every
day and I almost spend more time at his place than I do at home. I kind of hinted about moving in with him,
but he wouldn't commit to anything. He's
really not big on commitment, even though he says he loves me. He said he couldn't see himself being with
anyone else but me. How sweet is
that?
Spyder is a very private person and it's hard to tell
what he's thinking sometimes, but he's good at showing his love for me! Hehehe!
We went to the clinic together to get some advice on contraception. Spyder said he'd be happy with whatever I
wanted to do. He said there's no way he
wanted to have kids any time soon. He's
22 so I can understand that.
It made me think though. I don't want to have a baby right now, but
maybe in a few years time it would be good.
I'd love to have a baby with Spyder one day. I think he'd make a really good dad. He's calm, patient and so loving, and a
million times better than Adam! It
actually made me feel ill when I realised that I could be 5 months pregnant
with his baby right now. What the fuck
did I think I was doing with him? At
least I figured out the error of my ways and dumped him.
I'm so lucky to have Spyder. Everything is better when he's around. I'm happy at home, I'm happy at work and I'm
very happy in bed with him :) Anyway,
mum and dad are going out tonight so I've invited Spyder over and I'm going to
cook for him, well, frozen lasagne and garlic bread. I think even I can manage to get that right!
15th May
Spyder is full of surprises! Last night we did more than celebrate our three
month anniversary. Spyder turned up with
a bottle of champagne! I asked what it
was for and he said he got the cheque from the gallery this morning. My very clever boyfriend has sold all the
photographs he took of me! I don't think
I've ever seen him so happy! Well not
with his clothes on anyway...
We had another thing to celebrate too. I didn't burn the dinner! It was a really great night. Good food, good wine and champagne. I could get used to that. I think it must have been the bubbles but it
went straight to my head. Spyder was in
a naughty mood so we quickly cleared the table and he chased me up to the
bedroom. He said I was his lucky charm
and he wouldn't have had his big break if it wasn't for my beautiful body. He was all too keen to show me how beautiful
it was as he slowly peeled my clothes off and kissed me, EVERYWHERE!
There was no time for photographs, just kissing and
cuddling and sex, twice! I fell asleep
all cuddled up to Spyder. He was
supposed to be going home but he fell asleep too and the next thing I know it's
half seven in the morning and my alarm is going off!
My mum was a bit surprised to see Spyder at the
breakfast table. I explained we'd fallen
asleep listening to music last night, but she'd seen the empty bottles in the
recycling and figured out what really happened.
She wasn't mad but she did have a word with me later about letting her
know when Spyder was staying over. Mum
has a habit of walking around the house naked first thing in the morning so I
agreed to leaving a note on the fridge when Spyder was here, just to avoid any
embarrassment.
Mum had one of those misty eyed moments. She was wittering on about how I was growing
up too fast and soon she'd have an empty nest.
She said she could see me and Spyder setting up on our own in the not
too distant future. I didn't tell her
I'd already hinted at Spyder about moving in but he always changed the
subject. I think he is afraid I'll bring
chaos to his obsessively tidy room. He's
probably right! Perhaps if I tried to
keep my room tidy he won't think I'd be impossible to live with? It would be hard, but it would be worth it to
wake up with Spyder every morning.
30th May
I got the shock of my life tonight. I still can't quite believe it. I'd just got in from work when Simon phoned
me. I hadn't seen him in ages, he's not
been out much because Angel is doing her exams.
He asked me if I was busy on 1st July.
I said I'd got nothing in my diary and I asked why. Simon said he'd like to invite me and Spyder
up to Scotland. I asked if it was for a
gig or something and he said no, it was for his wedding. I was like WTF??? I asked who he was marrying and he said Angel
of course and he laughed at me. Yeah, I
know, I'm an idiot!
Simon told me he'd made all the arrangements, he'd
booked the chapel and the hotel and he wondered if me and Spyder would like to
be witnesses. I said I'd have to speak
with Spyder first but Simon said he'd just phoned him and he already said
yes. Simon had asked him to take some
photographs, he knew Spyder was good because he'd seen his gig photos and the
exhibition at the gallery in Bradford. I
blushed and wondered if Simon realised those pictures were of me?
Simon carried on telling me about the
arrangements. He said he'd pay for our
train tickets, guest house and everything so we wouldn't have to worry about the
expense. I was speechless! He had every little detail covered. Of course I said yes, I'd be honoured to be
their witness. Simon sounded so pleased
but he asked me not to say anything to Angel because it was going to be a
surprise.
I couldn't believe it!
Angel and Simon were getting married!
They are so young, Angel is 16
and Simon is 17. I guess that's why
they're going to Scotland. I shouldn't
really have been surprised, they were totally made for each other. Simon worships the ground she walks on and I
can tell by the way Angel looks at him that they have something special going
on. But getting married? Wow!
Then I wondered if it was a shotgun wedding. They hadn't been together that long and Simon
was always very proper and correct about things. Whatever the reason, it was all so perfectly
romantic.
I phoned Spyder up straight away and he said that
Simon had called and he'd agreed to do the photographs. He said he couldn't say no when Simon offered
him a grand to do it. A thousand pounds
just to take a few photographs! I said
Simon must have more money than sense, but Spyder got a bit cross at me for
that. He said it was about the going
rate and that price included all the prints, his time and everything.
Spyder told me how much some of his camera equipment
cost. I was shocked, but it made me
realise why he was so precious about it all now. It was his career though and he was bloody
good at it. That made me think about my
career. Ben would want his shop back
when he came home from his travels. I
wondered if he would keep me on but the shop didn't really do enough trade to
support both of us. I didn't really want
to think about that right now though, life was good and my friends were getting
married :D
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